I don't know how many people still believe in fate.
When I was a child, it was up to my parents to decide what kind of clothes to wear, what kind of make-up classes to attend, which students to play with, and not to play with any other students in the class. So we are often very vague about the concept of choice, because you don't have to worry about it at all, and your parents will arrange everything for you.
June 24th of another year, for Shanxi people, every year today is an extraordinary day, some families may be happy, happy, some families may stay up all night, grief more and more. The reason is very simple, this day decided the fate of many people.
Some people may be ecstatic and finally achieve their desired goal after more than a decade of hard work, while others may cry bitterly and be annoyed by the dysfunctional performance.
There are several friends around me, they all took part in this year's college entrance examination, some are fresh graduates, some are repeat students, some people take the exam higher, some people take the lower exam. Of course, there is no need to say much about those who are high in the examination, and they are in a good mood and enjoy themselves, but those who are slightly worse are not going to have a good time.
I am a freshman this year. On June 24 last year, I also experienced pain. Unfortunately, I also failed in the college entrance examination.
To tell you the truth, I always had high expectations of myself in high school, and my grades were always good, but in the third year of high school, all kinds of force majeure hit me, and I really felt powerless. So much so that when the college entrance examination results were announced, I was almost cut off from the whole world. My friends called and did not answer; the teacher called and did not answer; the family ordered dinner and did not eat. At a certain moment, I felt that I had been targeted by people all over the world, as if everyone wanted to laugh at me, and everyone wanted to say, isn't it normal for you to pretend that Zhang Yifan is very pushy? your achievement, let's see what else you can pretend.
First shameless, then anger.
I finally survived the painful days, and when I had to volunteer, I took a look at the registration guide. If you want to go out of town, the schools you can go to are all his mother's colleges and the like, and they can't even be counted as a university. It may be out of self-esteem, if they are angry, they will not go to any college; if they have a bad name, they will not go; if the environment is not good, they will not go. Picking and picking, I went back to Taiyuan University of Science and Technology, where I lived for 20 years. It's really because there's no place to pick!
Think about what it's like to be trapped in such a university for 20 years. To be honest, Taiyuan University of Science and Technology is really not a good school. To put it simply, it doesn't matter what you want. But how did I get out of my head at that time, I came to HKUST and chose a major I didn't know what to do. I was confused for a year. Usually play over and over again, the final exam, become miserable. Finally, I know. I can't fail. I have to study hard. I opened a brand-new textbook.
See this, you may think, I am too bad, depraved, ignorant, picky, do not want to make progress, lust for pleasure. But one thing is that one can only see what one wants to see from others, and you can never see through a person's mind and thoughts. For example, you're looking at me right now.
Heard the family told such a story, the true story, happened in our village.
A college student finally finished his hard life in college, but could not find a job. At the same time, he met a non-local girl on the Internet. they got married, the woman was a teacher, and the monthly salary was not high, but the salary became the livelihood of the whole family, and the men were always looking for a job and a part-time job. but it's always unstable. During the Spring Festival this year, the family made an appointment to go to the woman's house for the Spring Festival, but he could not even afford a decent gift. Asked the brothers to chip in 2000 yuan and went to the woman's house for the Spring Festival. The woman felt that the man could not make money, and she kept increasing her burden, clamoring for a divorce. In January this year, the man's father went out to work as usual and died accidentally on the first day he arrived at the construction site. Not only left him and his slightly demented mother, but also left more than a hundred thousand foreign debts borrowed when he built the wedding house.
I don't know how he's doing now, my mother said. People are sometimes forced out. Maybe he is living and struggling hard now.
I said, I hope so. But if he is willing to fight, does he have to wait until his family is broken before he starts to work hard?
One more thing, in this year, I deeply realized the weight of "unsatisfactory".
During the military training, I met so many people, living under the same roof with five strangers for the first time, fantasizing about the good life in the university, and in order to make a good impression on my roommates, I was the first to get up every day, take out the trash and contract the work in the dormitory. However, I am destined to be a lazy person, military training is not over, I can not stick to it. It's my own fault. I'm too lazy.
I always liked singing, but at that time I was very concerned about what other people thought of me, because I was a very introverted person. Until I was attended the freshman orientation party. That's what my roommate signed up for me. He sings very well. I just want to have a companion so that I won't be too lonely. Now that you have signed up, practice well. I practiced for a while, singing the same song tirelessly every night, but still imagining the cheers off the court with a wonderful vision. At that time, it was really exciting. The welcome party finally arrived as scheduled, and our program was at the beginning, putting on makeup and making a head, just when I fantasized about the success of this performance. Oh, sure enough, it was still a fatal problem. The microphone turned out to be broken, and I wondered if someone had tampered with it on purpose. finally, my singing was drowned out by the noise, the music accompaniment, and the singing of my companions. At that time, I still wanted to cover the microphone with my voice. After trying it, I found that I was too young. There was a wry smile in my heart, but fortunately, I was not out of control, so I walked down the process according to the rules.
No one knows how sad I was at that time, and no one knows how many times I cursed the organizer of the orientation party. I guess one of my roommates should know, because I was at loggerheads with him and almost got into a fight about it.
Leaving that stage, I went to the corridor of the complex by myself and sat on the windowsill, thinking of nothing but grievances.
Another experience is still essential.
Perhaps it is because the family runs a shop, so they have an inexplicable interest in doing business. Throughout the first half of their freshman year, they spent their brains in order to make money. In the end, sure enough, the bamboo basket fetches water, and the reason is very simple: if everyone can succeed in this matter, it will not be your turn. Sorry, I just belonged to the most mediocre. However, there are still some gains. Being an agent for campus loans as a freshman can also be regarded as the first bucket of gold in life.
In the first half of my freshman year, I suffered all kinds of hardships, handed out leaflets and was sent to the security office by the doorman, and was cheated out of hundreds of yuan as a part-time job, and so on. The whole person is not good. I feel like there's really nothing I can do. No wonder I'm single.
Through the painful experience of the second semester, I suddenly felt that maybe this is fate.
Everything is the best arrangement.
I don't know how many people still believe in fate. For the friends who have finished the college entrance examination, I would like to say that what the exam will look like, there will be a day to decide how to go in the future, God knows, what we can do, or the old saying, live in the present.
All the unhappiness we encounter now, and all what happens to us, is a test for ourselves. I chose to come to HKUST. I have such a group of funny roommates and such a group of like-minded friends. Who can say that this is not fate.
In college, learning textbooks is no longer the whole of life, but learning is still, we have to learn to become stronger, learn to make ourselves invincible, learn to chase girls brazenly, and learn to do things well.
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