That year I left the cozy university, bid farewell to my parents in my hometown, and embarked on the road of military service. I was flustered at that time, but my goal was very clear. I wanted to change myself. Now I drag my luggage back to my hometown, my heart is also panicked, but I can not find the direction.
Leaving the army is not what I want, but I have to leave. The family environment makes me have to step into society as soon as possible to earn money. The dedication of two years of youth is only limited to me. Now that I have left the army and stepped into society, I feel quite confused. I don't know where my direction is, what I should do, what I will do, and how I should work hard with my hands.
The mottled complexity of society and the capriciousness of human nature make me very uncomfortable, but very realistic. Stepping into the society, I know the magnanimity of the barracks, the integrity of the soldiers; the beauty of the campus, the innocence of my classmates; but I don't know where my tomorrow is!
People often say that affection is beautiful and love is sacred, but why all I see is a stain. In front of the money, relatives blush one by one, fighting over each other, as if they had been against each other for ten lifetimes. Between men and women, they are not talking about feelings, they are talking about cars, talking about houses, and comparing savings. What else do I have to say? maybe I generalize, but that's what I've been through, what I've seen. I can not change this society, I can only change myself, let myself adapt to this society, drift with the current, out of the mud without staining is just thinking, veterans do not die, just wither.
I am a veteran, I am very confused!
Author: Huang Jieming
Post a comment