Quietly, living alone.

I need a quiet, quiet room, no music, no artificial sound. There can be birdsong, there can be insects singing, there can also be the sound of rain. But don't have any sound on TV or computer. I need to immerse myself in a natural and quiet atmosphere, and then I don't think about anything but do what I have to do.

I don't use the alarm clock function of my phone for a long time. The days of being woken up early by the alarm, constantly staring at the clock on the wall, rushing to wash, eating breakfast and rushing to work are over.

I changed my life again.

More than ten years ago, I gave up my career and started working freely. Most people seem to laugh at my stupidity sympathetically. Can stop pay to stay, can take long-term sick leave, how can the establishment be discarded? According to their thinking, I am really stupid. I don't mind if they take me for a fool.

I have worked in the private sector for many years. Now I need to change my life and give up my job in the private sector.

Quiet, living alone in the morning my dog waited quietly before I woke up, jumped to the windowsill to watch the view, and would not disturb my sleep.

Every morning when I get up, I go out for a walk with my puppy, which is the first event of the day.

My puppy is Wangwang. I tie a rope for him at any time to make sure that he is safe with me.

I make my own breakfast and eat it myself. I never order takeout, no matter which meal.

I will think about what to do during the day when I take a walk with Wangwang in the morning, and then write down what I want to do in a book after breakfast. For example: 1, change the sheets, wash the changed sheets; 2, then read ten pages yesterday; 3, call a friend; 4. I won't let myself do much when I go shopping in the supermarket.

Every evening I will go out for a walk with Wangwang again. And then go home and cook dinner.

I closed all the curtains before night fell.

I am troubled by anxiety.

Waves of fear quickly swept through my body, and I felt as weak as a paper house and weak and powerless! I told myself to relax. I took a deep breath. I didn't think about anything. I needed to get myself moving. I couldn't sit still. I tidied up my clothes, and I called Wangwang to follow me, and I accepted this outbreak of anxiety, and I knew that the more I accepted it, the faster it disappeared, and every outbreak of anxiety made me feel like I was going to die, but many times, I didn't die, just miserable, helpless and alone in grief.

No one can really help me except myself. I get tired after every anxiety. I need to take a Valium to sleep.

Wake up and the days go on

My neurasthenia is getting worse and worse, so I no longer do mental work.

Walking is an important thing I have to do every day. My brain is in a state of rest almost all day. I talk to my friends on Wechat and talk to my good friends on the phone. My daughter often calls me.

Quietly, a person living a day, a person's life so quietly. It doesn't matter whether you are happy or not, and it has nothing to do with happiness. I know that there are many people like me, quietly living a person's life. I'm nothing special.